Sep 02 2008 6:51 PM
Lately I've been wondering what I am doing, and why I am doing it.
It is a tricky question, and I haven't found an answer yet. The what part is the easy one. I am a composer of weird songs, occational video director and from time to time sound engineer. Unpaid or underpaid, of course.
The why is a lot harder.
To be honest, I don't know why. But I can think of a few reasons:
1) I can't help it
2) to earn a dime doing something fun
3) to work with people I like
The first one is a clichee, but it might be true.
The second one is a laugh, because I have never earned enough to pay my bills.
The third one is sympathetic, but not necessarily true. I have worked with a lot of people I liked, but also with people I've disliked. Sometimes the result has been the same.
This takes me back to reason one again. Is this reason enough? I don't know, and from time to time I seriously think about selling the equipment and just quit.
Will I be able to do this? I don't know. I just might...

Possibly not